Dear sweet Imogen and Ivy although you are the innocent ages of 3 & 5 there are a few things I want you to know. Things I want you to be aware of when you turn 16. I really just want the best for you and I want you to have everything you could possibly ever imagine out of this life.
I want you to find the beauty in this life. It can be so amazing but we cannot find beauty without experiencing adversity. But when you do I want you to remember something that I was told when I was your age.
Trials are blessings in disguise
Believe it or not, it is true. My life has had its ups and downs but I've always been able to make my own choices. This has been a good and bad thing. But I want you to know that
the greatest lessons ever learned are from our attempts at taking chances.
Its better to fail at anything than to not have tried at all. So many times in my life fear has gotten in the way of fulfilling dreams. Please do not let this get in your way. I know you are stubborn. And while you are little this is so hard for me.. But I remember that when you are older this will be one of your greatest qualities.
I want you to know that I love you more than anything in this world and I know that one day you are going to meet someone who is going to sweep you off your feet and they will love your heart for all that you are worth. But you should know that in this journey there will be heart break, tears and times where you will feel like you can't breathe because it hurts. Remember that I love you and I was there once too. It will feel like me your mom will never understand but I do.. I was once 16 too. A thought comes to mind that when I would experience heart break I would always come back to this and that is that every single person you meet will lead you to the person you are meant to be with. Its so crazy to see it all unveil itself as time goes on but I look back and see how if I had chose to do even the slightest thing different me and your dad would have never met. Had I never made that crazy decision to make my week vacation to New York City a permanent decision you would not be here. Everything happens the way its meant to.
Me and your father have decided years ago that when you were only the age of 2 that we would practically bribe you with buying you a car if you chose to not kiss a boy till you turn 18. Now to any parent this may seem crazy but let my sweet girls be decider in this choice.
I want to be your best friend always but your mom first. I want you to always trust me and that no matter what you do in this life. Where you go or decisions you make you never have to be afraid to tell me anything. I will be understanding to your needs and choices but I want you to know that I want to do what I think is best for you. But I will always keep your feelings in mind. Something I believe wholeheartedly in is agency. I believe we have the right to make our own choices. Doing this allows you to find yourself. But sometimes you need your parents guidance.
Being 16 you are going to feel like you know everything and that you can conquer the world.
I felt like this too. But I look back and how often do I think now that my dad was right. I can't tell you how many times I call my dad now asking him advice. So just a little advice its okay to be wrong you don't always have to be right. It's exhausting.
Fight your what you love.
This world is full of chaos and negativity and unfortunately sometimes people can be flat out RUDE! Do not let this harden your heart. Kill them with Kindness. Once Gaga (Grandma Debbie) sent me a quote during a time where I was very bitter towards someone who I loved and had hurt me. It said:
" Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let pain make you hate. Do not let bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place " - Kurt Vonnegut
How this quickly turned my attitude around.
Sometimes the people you love the most will hurt you and that is okay. This life is not meant to understood why everything happens the way it does. Just know Heavenly Father will never lead you a stray. He loves you and its so crazy to think that me, your mother, I love you more than anything in this world and he your Father in Heaven he loves you more than I do. I can't imagine a world where anyone could love you more than me but he does.
I know I've said it once and I'll say it again. Remember who you are. The world can be a beautiful place if you let it. But it can also be a world that can destroy you as well. Things are not always as they seem. Sometimes the worst things in this world are camouflaged and look like they aren't as bad as they seem. Look deeper and think with your heart and soul. Don't let the world change you. They will make you think you aren't as amazing as you really are. But the world is deceitful and not as glamorous as they make it look.
I am your Mother. I want to protect you from all the evils of this world. I know I can't. But it doesn't make me want to try any less. You will always be my babies. I want you to promise me something. That wherever this life takes you...
that you will always remember who you are