Positive Mantras for breakfast.
Choosing how to live your life.
- I choose calm over anxiety
- I am present within myself
- I can center myself with the ease of my breath
- I feel grounded, confident, worthy & whole
- Feelings are not facts
- Don't let your mind bully your body
- I am doing my best. That is all I can expect of myself
- We rise by lifting others
" What you think, you become.
What you feel, you attract.
What you imagine, you create "
Its been about a month since I have written and I have missed it so much. Mom life gets crazy and there isn't enough hours in the day to get everything done. In that time Thanksgiving passed and Christmas is almost here. I haven't been able to paint much which makes me a little sad. I definitely realize that I did not take advantage of my free time before kids. I think I drank too much coffee in too many coffee shops while editing my photos than anything else. Anyways I have not been able to finish any painting since my Ivy-Rós (the little in the coral dress) decided to add to my last piece. And by add I mean she used black paint over a subtle watercolor autumn tones. It was not fixable unfortunately. I had my cry then turned the painting to face the wall so I didnt have to look at it. I love my kids but as a mom sometimes we forget ourselves. We lose our identities. And I'm not about to let everything I have go. I can be a mom and still do the things I love. I cannot just throw everything out the window.
With that being said I am going to continue this journey finding me. There has to be a balance. I love being a mom but long after the kids are gone if I hate the person I've become then I will never forgive myself.
" If you've lost your wings; you have got legs, keep walking. If you've lost your legs; you have got arms; keep crawling. If you've lost your arms; you have got your mouth, keep shouting. Lose whatever, but never ever lose your soul.
- Daniel Saint
I feel inspired to come out my comfort zone and do things I wouldn't normally do. Its true what they say about musicians who go through bad breaks up they write beautiful music. Not that I am going through a break up but I feel like I am grieving the death of someone that never died. It is the most bizarre feeling I've ever felt. Its distracted me from my art, from my kids, from my marriage from my whole life. I've decided only you can allow someone else to live rent free in your mind. Its time to pay up. I will no longer allow myself to feel hurt. I have learned a lot from this situation. I've learned that sometimes when you've hurt for a long time that one day one little thing can explode.
Hate is stemmed from hurt.
If you hate something or someone it is because you care enough about it or them to allow you to be hurt.
Well I'm done. I've prayed and will continue to pray for you. But now its time to focus on the important things in my life. And more importantly my sweet children and husband deserve an apology because I haven't been completely there in my mind for a few months now. So I'm sorry. I love you. I'm grateful you have been there for me. I'm grateful you never left my side the countless nights that I've cried. I'm grateful that my children have been so patient. I'm grateful for their love.
I will forever take bad energy and make it something positive.